Dark Blue

It's been raining for the past few days which resulted to four days of class suspension. Days were spent mostly just by sleeping all day on my bed. The whole place is flooded and most of the food stores are either closed/cannot deliver food in our area so you could just imagine the amount of unhealthy food I've consumed the past few days. It's quite alarming but there's no signs of kidney failure yet (god forbid). It's nice to get a rest from school considering that we just had our examination but not being able to go out for four days is no fun either. Albeit I enjoy listening to the sound of rain and watching it, I also kind of miss waking up to the golden rays of sunlight peeking through my window.  

Something Good Can Work

This is definitely the perfect place for music and vintage stuff lovers.

Tried Subway for the first time. Definitely 10/10.

Saw this old woman sitting n the sidewalk, arranging the bottles she'd gathered. That was me handing her my drink.

*sigh*

(outfit: bart simpsons top and skirt both from romwe, converse)

• Compliment other people genuinely whenever you can and as much as you can.

• Accept the fact that not everyone is like you. Learn to accept their flaws just as much as they accept yours.

• You may be nowhere near clingy nor affectionate but it wouldn't hurt to give a hug sometimes.

• Listen and appreciate.

• Try to mingle with other people sometimes. You may be an introvert but think of this as a source of knowledge and experience. Learn from their stories

• Accept compliments. Say thank you instead of denying/neglecting it. Boost your self-esteem.

• Learn from your mistakes.

• Breath.

• Do the things that you love and never stop doing them.

• Appreciate the love that you get from your family.

• Connect with your friends. Make them feel appreciated.

• Read books as much as you can.

• Kill all the negativity that surrounds you with your positive views. 

• Live.

I’m scared I’m gonna die as lonely as I feel right now

Lately, I've been feeling so alone. It's just really hard to keep up with people sometimes. My introversion seems to be a big factor as to why I'm feeling like this. And having extrovert friends is not making it any easier. I feel like I have to talk all the time so I wouldn't feel like I am such an asshole or a grumpy bitch. It's also hard for me when my friends have "other" friends" (e.g. internet friends). Suddenly I am out of the page. It's really hard. I don't mind them being associated with other people and all but it gets lonely sometimes. Like, they have this other dimension and I'm not part of it.